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Heather Marie Bond

I Luff Jaosn

Currently Listening A Mark, A Mission, A Brand, A Scar By Dashboard Confessional see related

Life Fucking Sucks!

What happens when you think one of your best friends that you love so much and you would do anything for, don't wanna be there for you anymore?

Hopelessly

--Heather Marie--

I love the boy to death and shit but its like he was always there for me and now... it's like he don't even want to talk to me. WTF is wrong with that.¿.¿.¿.

LIFE SUCKS!!!!

I love Jason Kyle Bauer

EDITING!!!

I think the best part of my life right now would have to be Jason, Chad and Amber. the only three people I think, well, kno I can trust with anything in this world. There always here for me when I need someone and I love all three of them with all my heart!! If I ever lost one of them I really couldn't tell you what I would do. They all mean the world to me and so much more! They love me.. well, I hope lol. But no really, I have never had anyone love me as much as they love me and it feels so awesome to kno that there in my life and I can trust them as much as I do! So thank you guys for being there for me when I needed you the most.

Especially you Amber.. I could never as for any one better than you. You've been there for me for about 7 years now. It's gonna kill me to see you move like 200 miles away from me. Being here in Ohio for a week kills me to be away from you so far. I love you so much!

Jason... I love you. Your a really sweet boyfriend. One of the best!I love you with all my heart! Your such a frinkin Cutie. Hope were together for a LONG time. When we were at the movies Amber and, I. When we first seen you and Connor. I was like Amber he's so adorable. It was funny you thought that I was going out with that other dude named Jason, yea um no...But, I love you baby.

Chad... I love you so much!!! I could never ask for such a great friend like you. You have made my day so many times, and I love you for that! Your so awesomelyamazing! Kayley is so lucky to have you. That's hard for me to say that I'm happy she gets to have you! but yes I'm really happy for you! But I really don't kno what I would do if I ever lost you it would really kill me. You make me laugh soo much all the time, everytime I talk to you it puts a smile on my face. It really does. I couldn't ask for anyone else but you to be there for me. When everyone else put me down you made me happy and made me realize how many people really care about me. I love you so much boy!

QUOTES

wait for the boy who will be your best friend, the boy who will drop everything to be with you at anytime of the day no matter what the circumstances, wait for the boy who makes you smile like no other makes you smile & when he smiles you know he needs you. wait for the boy who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats and have no make-up on. most of all, wait for the boy who puts you at the CENTER of his universe because obviously he'll be at the center of urs.

I want to be the smile, the first thought, the long drive or the short walk, the last voice, the random call, the laugh, the perfect kiss, the comfort hug, your second half, the sparkle in your eye, the everything you need, just what you want.

I'm scared because I don't want anyone else to have your heart. I don't want anyone else to kiss your lips, I don't want anyone else to be in your arms. I don't want anyone but me to be the one you love. I'm scared because I don't want anyone to take my place

I want a guy that will have pictures of me all over his room and will point his favorite ones out to me every time I walk in. One that will lay on my bed with me and ask me to tell him some random story. One that will lay outside with me on a chilly night, all wrapped up in a blanket with me and watch the stars. One that will send me flowers at times I don't expect at all. One that will call me up just to say "hey" and will sing to me on the phone. One that will listen to me, and hold me tight when I don't want to let go. One that will get in play fights with me then tell me I'm right just to see me smile. One that will stand outside my window throwing rocks at it just to say "I love you". One that will get caught in the rain with you. One you can be a complete dork around and he you still love you. And most of all, one that will love me for me.

Currently Listening All the Right Reasons By Nickelback Far Away see related

Hey guy's what's up? Not much here really just talking to Josh, and Chris. Pretty fun.. anyway's, Man I'm gonna miss Ohio when I go back on the 30th.. : (... I'll cry when we leave I already know I'm going to.... Tr la la la la.

Well, I had a pretty good Christmas but, there was a bit of fighting going on. But that's normal around here. But yea. I wrote Chad a 5 page letter and Caroline a 2 page one. That was so fun.. lol not. but yea. I love them both so it's alright I guess.

Well, I have a new layout. And yep pretty cute if you ask me. But yepppppp anyway's I'm kinda bored right now. But woot.... I have so much stuff going through my head right now. So much has been going on lately.... So much drama. I hate it!!! I really really do.

But what the fuck ever. My hair is now ummm Brown.!!! yep it's dyed Brown. lol well, I'm gonna go later guy's

Love you guy's

I love Jason Kyle Bauer

Heather Marie Bond

Editing//

Well, I just got up not to long ago..... and well I'm bored as hell.

I LOVE YOU the three most overused, misunderstood & misused words in the English language

Why??

By: Heather Marie Bond

This damn depression is taking over my life.
At the rate things are going, I'll never be a wife.
I am always feeling sad and blue,
I just don't know what to do.
If I am not feeling sad,
I'm constantly mad.
mad at what I'm not sure,
I wish I had the cure.
To make all of this go away,
so the sun could shine another day.
I wish I could feel the sun beams shine down,
but I feel like I'm stuck in the cold hard ground.
I wish I knew what caused this to happen to me.
I remember the days of being happy and care free.
Those days are no where to be found,
trust me I've been looking around.
I feel like crying all day long,
like I'm constantly doing wrong.
What did I do to deserve this pain?
It's always loss and never gain.
I see myself falling more day by day,
emotions being pulled every which way.
When did this start and when will it end,
Because all I want to do is mend.
I want to be the old me,
not this mess you see.
I want to be giggly, cute and fun.
I want to jump, run and skip in the sun.
I want to go places and be a good friend.
I don't want this to be the end.
Lord, please just send me a sign,
so that I know everything will be fine.

Letting Go.

By: Heather Marie Bond

For the best,
Or the worse,
I don't know.
Everything change for a reason,
From the smiles,
To frowns,
With all the ups and downs.
Letting go is the hardest thing to do,
Of the person you love the most,
But knowing it might be,
Only for the best.
When your the one that caused all the pain,
Wondering why he never left,
When he's the one who should have said it's over.
But your love for him won't let it go on forever,
Because he deserve everything that he giving you,
That you never return.
All you can do now is walk away,
And hold on to the memory,
Because you thought being together might make you strong,
But now realize you must have been wrong,
Because everything you do turn out to be wrong.
Wishing there were something you could do or say,
But you not sure he would even consider another day,
But yet why should he,
When you did wrong,.
As you try to let go of him,
But at night he fill your mind so much.
All you can do is cry,
And awake the next day with him still on your mind,
But you should have known it was coming to an end.
When you start getting that feeling inside that you about to lose,
But like someone said,
Love start with a smile,
Grows with a kiss,
And end in a tear.
Which is so true,
Because I guess who all love must part.
When things been wrong for so long,
And letting go is the best.